delight me when done for Your sake.
and may all repose not centered in You
be ever wearisome for me."
This is my current bit of meditation from the prayer. I like my repose. A lot. Work does not delight me, generally. I just do it. And I'm always trying to sneak extra moments of repose: more time in bed, more time in front of the computer, more time reading, more time for me. And yet it is true that stolen bread isn't sweet. The extra time I spend clicking around isn't refreshing. It's just putting off the inevitable dealing with my day: kids, dishes, laundry, trying to find socks for everyone so we can leave the house. And yet, if I am doing that work for God's sake, I'm asking for it to become a delight for me, something that I will seek to do, and do well, rather than cowering away in vain repose.
For Ordering a Life Wisely St. Thomas Aquinas O merciful God, grant that I may desire ardently, search prudently, recognize truly, and bring to perfect completion whatever is pleasing to You for the praise and glory of Your name. Put my life in good order, O my God Grant that I may know what You require me to do. Bestow upon me the power to accomplish your will, as is necessary and fitting for the salvation of my soul. Grant to me, O Lord my God, that I may not falter in times of prosperity or adversity, so that I may not be exalted in the former, nor dejected in the latter. May I not rejoice in anything unless it leads me to You; may I not be saddened by anything unless it turns me from You. May I desire to please no one, nor fear to displease anyone, but You. May all transitory things, O Lord, be worthless to me and may all things eternal be ever cherished by me. May any joy without You be burdensome for me and may I not desire anything else besides You. May all work, O Lord delight me when done for Your sake. and may all repose not centered in You be ever wearisome for me. Grant unto me, my God, that I may direct my heart to You and that in my failures I may ever feel remorse for my sins and never lose the resolve to change. O Lord my God, make me submissive without protest, poor without discouragement, chaste without regret, | patient without complaint, humble without posturing, cheerful without frivolity, mature without gloom, and quick-witted without flippancy. O Lord my God, let me fear You without losing hope, be truthful without guile, do good works without presumption, rebuke my neighbor without haughtiness, and -- without hypocrisy -- strengthen him by word and example. Give to me, O Lord God, a watchful heart, which no capricious thought can lure away from You. Give to me, a noble heart, which no unworthy desire can debase. Give to me a resolute heart, which no evil intention can divert. Give to me a stalwart heart, which no tribulation can overcome. Give to me a temperate heart, which no violent passion can enslave. Give to me, O Lord my God, understanding of You, diligence in seeking You, wisdom in finding You, discourse ever pleasing to You, perseverance in waiting for You, and confidence in finally embracing You. Grant that with Your hardships I may be burdened in reparation here, that Your benefits I may use in gratitude upon the way, that in Your joys I may delight by glorifying You in the Kingdom of Heaven. You Who live and reign, God, world without end. Amen. translation by Robert Anderson and Johann Moser |
Sneaking in repose -- yeah, been there;done that.
ReplyDeleteEspecially these days when I come to late at night and realize that I've been clicking around the Internet looking at things I'm not particularly excited about just to put off doing other things -- things which are sometimes as trivial as brushing my teeth.