Sleep
For most of my child-raising career, I've never gotten up at a set time, and rarely before the kids wake up. I like being lazy in the morning. It should have been obvious from the beginning that getting up late would have serious repercussions for the rest of my day, but it's only recently that I've begun to change this pattern. My Lenten sacrifice this year was to give up sleep -- to get up early, in other words, and use that morning time to say Lauds. I've had mixed success with this, mostly because I rely on Darwin's alarm to get me up, and he gets up a different times depending on his morning schedule, and hits the snooze. That's fine for him; he always gets out the door when he needs to. But it doesn't work so well for me, because I don't have the accountability of getting to the office to keep me on schedule.
I've been starting to wake up the girls at a set time each morning, in hopes that this will make bedtimes easier in the evenings. So now it's time for me to get up at a set time as well -- preferably a good hour and a half before the kids, so that I can have some quiet time to set my day in order.
For Ordering a Life Wisely
St. Thomas Aquinas
O merciful God, grant that I may
desire ardently,
search prudently,
recognize truly,
and bring to perfect completion
whatever is pleasing to You
for the praise and glory of Your name.
Put my life in good order, O my God
Grant that I may know
what You require me to do.
Bestow upon me
the power to accomplish your will,
as is necessary and fitting
for the salvation of my soul.
Grant to me, O Lord my God,
that I may not falter in times
of prosperity or adversity,
so that I may not be exalted in the former,
nor dejected in the latter.
May I not rejoice in anything
unless it leads me to You;
may I not be saddened by anything
unless it turns me from You.
May I desire to please no one,
nor fear to displease anyone,
but You.
May all transitory things, O Lord,
be worthless to me
and may all things eternal
be ever cherished by me.
May any joy without You
be burdensome for me
and may I not desire anything else
besides You.
May all work, O Lord
delight me when done for Your sake.
and may all repose not centered in You
be ever wearisome for me.
Grant unto me, my God,
that I may direct my heart to You
and that in my failures
I may ever feel remorse for my sins
and never lose the resolve to change.
O Lord my God, make me
submissive without protest,
poor without discouragement,
chaste without regret,
patient without complaint,
humble without posturing,
cheerful without frivolity,
mature without gloom,
and quick-witted without flippancy.
O Lord my God, let me
fear You without losing hope,
be truthful without guile,
do good works without presumption,
rebuke my neighbor without haughtiness,
and -- without hypocrisy --
strengthen him by word and example.
Give to me, O Lord God,
a watchful heart,
which no capricious thought
can lure away from You.
Give to me,
a noble heart,
which no unworthy desire can debase.
Give to me
a resolute heart,
which no evil intention can divert.
Give to me
a stalwart heart,
which no tribulation can overcome.
Give to me
a temperate heart,
which no violent passion can enslave.
Give to me, O Lord my God,
understanding of You,
diligence in seeking You,
wisdom in finding You,
discourse ever pleasing to You,
perseverance in waiting for You,
and confidence in finally embracing You.
Grant
that with Your hardships
I may be burdened in reparation here,
that Your benefits
I may use in gratitude upon the way,
that in Your joys
I may delight by glorifying You
in the Kingdom of Heaven.
You Who live and reign,
God, world without end.
Amen.
translation by Robert Anderson and Johann Moser
Parresian eis ten Eisodon ton Hagion
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2 comments:
At the beginning of Lent, I intended to do the same (rise early for morning prayer & collecting myself before the children awoke), which was also a new thing for me. That was when the middle child was predictably waking first at 7:30am. When a few weeks passed & everyone's sleeping patterns got mixed up and someone started waking at 6:30am, I decided that surely God didn't intend me to wake at 6:00 (I was only going for a half hour before the kids were up), so I just tried to get my morning prayers in sometime during the morning, and then sometime during the day, and then somehow it was some days I got to it and some days I didn't. Which is exactly how I ended up in the position I was at the start of Lent in the first place! Okay, with 10 days left, surely I can get up at a respectable hour (regardless of who sleeps all night or who wakes at the crack of dawn) and say my prayers. Thank you for helping me regain focus in these last few days before Holy Week. Oh, and I was going to limit my online time to two 15 minute intervals, too, but then I couldn't find the timer and figured I'd just watch the clock and . . . all this is showing me that I have developed a complete lack of self-discipline.
I have just made it a rule on this blog that you are not allowed to tell me that there are only TEN DAYS LEFT IN LENT. That is all.
:)
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