Resisting the urge to start over
I recently went through the springtime of my discontent with how homeschooling was proceeding, and was about to throw it all up and start a new system. I read up on it, made a few plans, and even went to far as to go down to IKEA to pick up a catalogue so I could plan out a system of shelving and room organization. Fortunately, the store was out of catalogues. "And we won't be getting any more in until the new ones are printed in June," the sales associate told me.
June. After the school year is over. I took it as a sign that we need to persevere and try to perfect what we're doing now, instead of taking the easy route of starting afresh. It's always tempting to think that if we could just start over with a new system, this time everything would fall into place! Let's call this the fallacy of Bullwinkle: "This time for shure!" But there's often more advantage, though it might be harder work, in reassessing and cleaning up a system that's started to conform to one's own family. In fact, seeing where my schedule has failed is pretty valuable information, because it shows me how we've altered our original schema to fit our family's natural rhythms.
For Ordering a Life Wisely
St. Thomas Aquinas
O merciful God, grant that I may
desire ardently,
search prudently,
recognize truly,
and bring to perfect completion
whatever is pleasing to You
for the praise and glory of Your name.
Put my life in good order, O my God
Grant that I may know
what You require me to do.
Bestow upon me
the power to accomplish your will,
as is necessary and fitting
for the salvation of my soul.
Grant to me, O Lord my God,
that I may not falter in times
of prosperity or adversity,
so that I may not be exalted in the former,
nor dejected in the latter.
May I not rejoice in anything
unless it leads me to You;
may I not be saddened by anything
unless it turns me from You.
May I desire to please no one,
nor fear to displease anyone,
but You.
May all transitory things, O Lord,
be worthless to me
and may all things eternal
be ever cherished by me.
May any joy without You
be burdensome for me
and may I not desire anything else
besides You.
May all work, O Lord
delight me when done for Your sake.
and may all repose not centered in You
be ever wearisome for me.
Grant unto me, my God,
that I may direct my heart to You
and that in my failures
I may ever feel remorse for my sins
and never lose the resolve to change.
O Lord my God, make me
submissive without protest,
poor without discouragement,
chaste without regret,
patient without complaint,
humble without posturing,
cheerful without frivolity,
mature without gloom,
and quick-witted without flippancy.
O Lord my God, let me
fear You without losing hope,
be truthful without guile,
do good works without presumption,
rebuke my neighbor without haughtiness,
and -- without hypocrisy --
strengthen him by word and example.
Give to me, O Lord God,
a watchful heart,
which no capricious thought
can lure away from You.
Give to me,
a noble heart,
which no unworthy desire can debase.
Give to me
a resolute heart,
which no evil intention can divert.
Give to me
a stalwart heart,
which no tribulation can overcome.
Give to me
a temperate heart,
which no violent passion can enslave.
Give to me, O Lord my God,
understanding of You,
diligence in seeking You,
wisdom in finding You,
discourse ever pleasing to You,
perseverance in waiting for You,
and confidence in finally embracing You.
Grant
that with Your hardships
I may be burdened in reparation here,
that Your benefits
I may use in gratitude upon the way,
that in Your joys
I may delight by glorifying You
in the Kingdom of Heaven.
You Who live and reign,
God, world without end.
Amen.
translation by Robert Anderson and Johann Moser
Parresian eis ten Eisodon ton Hagion
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4 comments:
Oh, yes. "This time for shure!" is, like, the story of my life.
What you need is the Rainbow Resource catalog--coincidentally, also out in June! Now *that's* a catalog that will spur one on in the "it will all work wonderfully and they'll soak up the education if I just chuck what I'm using and buy *that* curriculum" mindset.
I should start one of them order novenas...
Aw, just jump in here with me, C.
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